darkness

Darkness fills my mind
but I try and hide it
slipping away is my time
so I byde it
past memories of those who have gone before me,
some were enemies
but most betrayed me as friends and family
rest in peace
can someone tell me when this life of pain will ever cease?
They tell me to change my ways,
or I'll never make it
I've smiled death in the face so many times now
there is no faking it,
and these feelings of hopelessness and despair
aint no shaking them
another attempt on my life
fuck it
make another cut, death I'll take it
never again will I be the same
if you cant hear me
let me show my pain
you see these scars on my throat, arms and wrists
If you've been, where I've been
you'd try too, to get away from all the emotional pain and psysical stress
once upon a time I called myself soldier
had to break up a thousand times over
in here every day is the same
but year after year, my heart grows colder
and they ask me why
I am always angry
it's because hate
is what they made me
Hate is what they made me,

By Shaun J. Matz